A Thought, An Apology

Earlier this week I saw a woman scream at another woman from her car because she was crossing the street.

Why did the woman scream at the other woman for crossing the street?

She was only crossing the street?!

There is a bit of “powering up” one does when they are behind the wheel of two tons of metal. You feel stronger, better, and a large sense of entitlement. (Even when pedestrians have the right of way)

I am that driver.

Awhile ago I attended The Pop Up Flea which was set up and curated by Michael Williams of A Continuous Lean. I went and it wasn’t what I expected it to be. So I whined and complained about it. I did not acknowledge the work that went into planning it out nor did I acknowledge anything on the good side of it. I gave my two cents and walked away.

Part of that two cents also consisted of calling out Michael Williams for not being as warm and buddy buddy as I wanted him to be.

My idea was that he would see me and open a secret door, give me a high five and we would play street fighter.

Instead he greeted me warmly and remembered me. For some reason my selfishness and child like frustration got in the way and I got my feelings hurt. So I called him out on it, on another person’s blog who was ragging on him.

Shame on me, Yes yours truly was in the wrong (something that happens often believe it or not) and I chose not to confront him but behaved cowardly and awkwardly.

See I talked to him today and he is probably one of the nicest most down to earth guys I’ve met. He actually was like “Wait you’re Jeremy right? I remember you giving me a hard time about…”

“Why didn’t you just email me?” he said.

I stood there and fumbled over my words like a four year old.

I began with an analogy of him being like a big brother you aspire to be etc. See Michaels blog got big, really big. It gets name dropped in the New York Times. A lot. He’s a legit guy who knows quite a bit about the world and the ever changing culture within it.

So like anything that gets big or mainstream etc. you hate on it. You get jealous. I powered up with others behind their computers to spew criticisms based on others experiences and thoughts. Its amazing what a group of people can do. For futher references check the comments on anything at brooklynvegan.com

I apologized to Michael today then I emailed him to thank him for calling me out. Last but not least I’m doing this post as public apology.

See I’m a pastors kid, I like to be old fashioned and believe in good manners but I am not without fault. Michael if you read this give me another chance to make a real gentleman out of myself. Last but not least thanks for being a real one.

Kindest Regards

-swt